Archive for January, 2008

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Open letter to a faceless foe

January 28, 2008

Dear NotMe-

You seem to be in and out of my life.  Who the hell are you?  I find you are lurking at home and at work.  You are blamed for so much.  SO i thought i would drop  you a line to tell you how i feel about this!

I really think it is time for you to show your face.  You seem to be living in my house.  I did not invite you nor did i adopt you and i know i did not give birth to you.  I did not hire you at work either.  So i am asking nicely would you kindly pack your bags and go.  You are blamed for everything, like, leaving the toilet seat up, not hanging up coats, or not helping with laundry.  When asking the children who would like to take a shower first, NotMe. Where are you? Why can i never find you? 

I have asked my children who is this “NotMe person?”  My children have a bewildered look as if they do not even know you but you are the one blamed for everything.

At work I just say, “someone walked on the new floor before it was cured” and what does the staff say….”NotMe”! What i cannot seem to find you?

So while you are wrecking havoc on my life, I am asking nicely now and next “mean Mom” is going to come out and i will have to yell at you.  So please save us all the stress and just GO. Just like the Dr. Suess book, Marvin K Mooney will you please go Now.  I am asking nicely!  NotMe will you please go Now.

 Sincerly,

Hallie

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Free association 4

January 27, 2008

My weekly random thoughts…

My friend Mike said to me that free association i should be writing one word that comes to mind not multiple….what do you think?

Anyway….. You can find my first one here. I love it…I guess every weekend this person writes ten new words….You can find it on Unconscious Mutterings

So again consider yourself tagged i just think it is fun….

I say … and you think … ?

  1. Booze ::beer
  2. Counter ::need more!
  3. Action :: figure not to be confused with a doll
  4. Trial :: chester…he is in so much trouble!! We go to court on Thursday!!
  5. Wheelchair :: races with my friend kimmy when all the laundry is done and the house is picked up!
  6. 1-800 :: -799
  7. Chop :: chop..lets go
  8. Relatives :: can’t pick them
  9. Bed sheets :: super soft and organic
  10. Funnel :: queen!

Well i hope you enjoyed the list. i would love to see what you would do!

Peace out

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SEX DRUGS SONGS AND QUESTIONS

January 26, 2008

I will admit I have always listened to my own music with my kids. I never could get into “baby beluga” or any of the disney tapes, I would listen to Enya or Jerry Garcia, Blues Traveler. I listened so much that I walked into a store, they were playing some blues traveler overhead and Jordan at about 3 started singing along. Oh boy the looks I got. I had to stop listening to Gin and Juice, Phish as it had to many swear words in it and I did not want the kids to repeat them… you get the picture.

Okay so I know listening to my own music with my boys could cause questions. Well today one came up. Jordan and I had dropped off the twins at a birthday party and I was listening to my iPod on shuffle and Toad the Wet Sprocket,

Come back down

Ive come here a thousand times, some things never change
Yes I will, anything you say
Ive quit this a million times, cant quite stay away
Just one more time…Ill be ok
But Im so damn tired

When I come back down
Though Im crazy to
Anything you want from me Ill do

Hey joe, could you spare a buck
I could use some food
What a laugh, one more fool
Two hours and its back again, lapping at my heels
Stop yelling..Ill get through
But Im so damn tired

Ive come here a thousand time
Some things never change
Lay me down…take me away
God, Im so damn tired

Okay now Jordan says to me…”come back down…what is coming down?”

Humm what do you say?… SO i ask what he knows about drugs…He said there are good ones that doctors give you and bad ones. I asked do you know what bad drugs do to you? He said no…my heart sinks..what does a mother say? I tell him about taking a bad drug makes a person think they feel so good and then they are “high” and it does not last long as it wears off and then they “come down”. I give all sorts of examples. Feeling pretty proud of myself that i think he gets it and how bad drugs are.

Then with a preteen attitude, “SOOO MOMMY, how come you know SO much about this?” HEART POUNDING…I say, “Because I am a grown up and that is why”

I know that is not the answer he was looking for. Are these questions going to get easier? NEXT IS GOING TO BE ABOUT SEX! Okay anyone willing to come help with these talks? This is why you have two parents as one parent can have these talks or you can at least have a game play. I am flying by the seat of my pants!!!

 

 

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The Rocks in life that make me sane! Meme

January 25, 2008

Okay Over at Elizabeth’s Place she has tagged me!  And well life and been C.R.A.Z.Y. to say the least. I just want a quiet weekend where all the laundry is done and the house is clean!! but anyway enough of my daydreaming…on with the meme!!!

So Elizabeth says:

Taking a cue from the editor of Real Simple, I started thinking about those things in my life that 100% reliable.  Fail safe.  Dependable.  Solid.  The Rocks that keep me sane.  So I’m sharing with you thing things that I can always, always count on and then I’m going to tag some folks to get their lists as well.  Enjoy! 

1. My childrens laughter. It always makes me smile! :) They melt my heart.

 2.  My iPod. It is my trusty companion.  I take it everywhere.  I would plug my ears in all day if i could. but JB got me speakers for xmas so i can share my music at work and I think so when he calls on the phone i will answer!!

3.  My parking spot at work. I know this may sound silly but hear me out.  It is the way i like to start my day. I know where i am going to park. NOW GOD HELP ANYONE PARKING IN MY SPOT. I actually called someone and told them they were in my spot and really should move but comprimised and they promised never to park there again.

4.  Light blue. My perfume. It is such a soft pleasant scent. It makes me happy.

5.  Neutrogena® Fresh Foaming Cleanser . I love the stuff! I used to use anything but after going to my demeratologist she said this would be great for me.  IT ROCKS. When i forgot it in FL my face felt awful! I ran out to buy some!!

6.  Canoli. OMG a way to my heart is to buy me a canoli! This is my all time hands down favorite comfort food.  I would eat them all the time when i was pregnant.  I cannot find them very often so when i do it is a treat.

7.  Reef Flip Flops. That is one of my favorite tan lines! I noticed that ny flip flop tan is gone.  Summer here i come!!

8.  Burts Bees wax chap stick. I love the stuff. I have some for winter and summer

9. Waking. Feeding. Watering. Dressing. Showering. Tucking in. Kissing goodnight. For my three boys!!! 

10.  My friends. Thank god for them. I would not make it without them some days.

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Insomina

January 22, 2008

has this ever happened to you?

I know when i get myself stressed out or something is weighing on my mind i tend not to sleep. I am still awake and it is midnight! i have a full day tomorrow and three active boys to deal with in the morning. now with suffering from this you would think i would put my time to good use, NOOO why would i do that! i surf the net or watch tv.

So I am grabbing my board! Surfs up!

PS …nothing out of the ordinary is stressing me so it is weird….makes you kinda go hummm

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Free association 3

January 22, 2008

My weekly random thoughts….   You can find my first one here.  I love it…I guess every weekend this person writes ten new words….You can find it on Unconscious Mutterings

So again consider yourself tagged i just think it is fun….

I say … and you think … ?

  1. President :: Bush
  2. Stare :: makes me feel uncomfortable
  3. Embrace :: feeling the love, feeling the connection, feeling like you are not alone all the time
  4. Movie :: Treasure hunt.  predictable
  5. Everything :: comes together in the end
  6. Profile :: facebook
  7. Satire :: TV
  8. Erratic :: the troll
  9. Costume :: halloween
  10. Secretary :: linda, second mother. i wonder if she knows how much i care about her?
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So much easier going up to the top than it is to come down

January 21, 2008

It has been a whirl wind this past week!

I was welcomed from my trip to FL with BUDGETS. OMG! who knew i had so many programs! Well that was done with some help, thanks guys! Then I needed to type up a spread sheet for the trustee report on all the programs I did last year and what my goal was this year! WHOLY COW! Crash course in EXCEL! Pretty cool features! Then I got an email from someone at work, who will remain nameless, saying I needed all my stuff for the catalog in by FEB. 4th! OMG! WHAT!?? Almost everything is done for that! I just need to put it in the right form and check dates!

Phew! I was expecting a quiet week! Guess not! I barely unpacked my bags from FL did my mother day to me, you want to bring the kids to NH for the weekend! With the load of work i had gotten done! I was ready to repack my bag with warmed clothes and get out of dodge!

I liked going to NH as it is has no computer and the only phone that rings is my cell phone and if you do not have that number you cannot find me. For xmas my dad said he would get me new skis! Very exciting as i have not skied in about 10 years. I have broken my feet a number of times, i have been pregnant, or had to care for the kids. BUT now ALL three boys ski! OMG! Jordan is a rocket! Jumping! pointing his skis straight down without looking back. a very good skier. Nathaniel is right behind him. he is very confident! I love it! Raymond on the other hand, is my old soul. very cautious! but will get out there and do it!

SO my dad had this brilliant idea, lets get the skis this weekend. Then lets drop you off at the mountian where the kids are taking lessons until 3pm. Try out your new skis and he and my mom would go shopping. Eyes wide open, WHAT! Basically my parents picked up the skis, dropped me off at the mountian, and left me there. No care no nothing! So i had no choice to ski. A bit nervous, as i have a good understanding of falling and getting hurt. I so was not in the mood! But i got my lift ticket, got in line and it was like riding a bike. I was a bit timid at first but hey it had been ten years and I HAD broken both my feet since then. I skiied for a couple of hours until it was time to pick up the boys. I coming down, and i see these two people jumping up and down at the lodge, ITS MY PARENTS….I roll my eyes, and ski over. Both of them come down to tell me they have another BRILLIANT idea….bracing they say why dont you take the boys to the top for a run. OMG are you kidding, by myself? Well my dad said we just paid for them to be in lessons so they should be fine! WHAT WAS I THINKING?

So i think maybe they are to tired to ski, I was praying they were to tired to ski. honestly who wants to be seen with their mom. OH WAIT MY KIDS HAVE NOT REACHED THAT STAGE! So all three boys want to go to the top! My heart sinks. how can you say no?

So my dad helps me get them all to the lift line. Raymond, trying to rationalize where we all should sit on the lift and why. We get on the chair, all four of us, we ride up, it dawned on me that they might not be able to get off the lift. everyone assured me they could. Then we are getting closer and closer to the edge, we finally get the bar up, Raymond freezes as he sees the “cliff” at the top of the slope. I grabbed him by the back and pushed. Not a good start the the ski down. I will give it to Raymond it DID look like a cliff but as soon as we got to where we were going he did much better. We ski down a little, a bit tough actually for raymond, Jordan and Nathaniel are flying, trying jumps.

Nathaniel and Jordan are patiently waiting for Raymond to come down this one part. Raymond losing control over the ice making his “pizza wedge” Raymond is screaming, I am taking a deep breath and I see Nathaniel and JOrdan putting there arms out in efforts to “catch” their brother. Then there is a snow boll of three little boys. Tears are streaming, skis are everywhere and then rayomnd stands up and through his tears saying “thats it, I will just take my skis off and walk down” Well i was with him, but I had to be the parent and say to him we were going to put his skis back on and get down together. He kept telling me all he wanted was to take a nap. All three boys were exhausted. Jordan and Nathaniel being such a good skier were so patient. I was proud of all three of them. Raymond eventually put his skis back on with a lot of him. I told him he had to dig deep, this was something he had to do on his own. Plus we were still at the top of the slope.

An hour later we make it to the bottom of the mountain, everyone in one piece. My legs are killing me from starting and stopping so much. My parents greet us. We finally get in the car with my dad going on and on about how long it took us. That my mom was a wreck thinking we had gotten hurt and so on. I was so pissed by that point and so tired. It was not a good idea but you know what. I think this will be like childbirth, it hurt at the time but i am sure my boys will look back and think about how their mom skied with them.

Well needless to say, i was in bed by 8pm that night, sound asleep, my legs are so sore… Just means i need to get the the gym and work on this if i am going to keep up with my boys!

So another week starts. I will have to tell you about my sugar free lifestyle i am trying. It has created a very hungry hallie, everything has SUGAR added to it! Shocking! well that is for another day. I am tired and i am off to Boston for a conference in the morning!

Peace out!

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Free association 2

January 17, 2008

Okay i have done it again!!   You can find my first one here.  I love it…I guess every weekend this person writes ten new words….You can find it on Unconscious Mutterings

So again consider yourself tagged i just think it is fun….

  1. Cluster ::F*ck….i am feeling a bit stressed with all these budgets, deadlines for catalogs and a trustee meeting report…hello i am one person!!
  2. Announcement :: I am pregnant! …. NO I AM NOT. but that would be a cool announcement
  3. Respect :: me…and i will respect you
  4. Incident :: something wrong has happened
  5. Accordion :: a yankee exchange present my brother got one year…what ever happened to it?
  6. Drunk :: how some people live their life…some people i know well…denial is a wonderful place
  7. If ::”monkeys flew out of my ass” I used to love to say that…so what if…it did not happen so why worry about it?
  8. Dexter :: Point dexter was the name of my bear when i was a kid
  9. Wedding :: this one is a hard one for me…i think of me trying to sign the marriage certificate with a pencil as it was less committal…it should have been a sign
  10. Gambling :: Foxwoods….enough said. it is in my backyard yet i never go…if you are going to dump your money into something give it to me and i will use it wisely! i could use it more than the indians!!

Okay so you can play along if you would like! I would love to hear what you have to say …leave a comment so i know to look for it!!

Peace out!

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Did you miss me?

January 16, 2008

Oh my goodness! I have been gone and now i am back! Phew! I know i did not leave any warning…i meant to but life spun out of control fast! will you ever forgive me? Work sent me to FL to US Sailing Symposium…i know what you are thinking…oh how rough could that be? It had its moments if you knew who was there….lets just say i was haunted by the troll…. otherwise It was amazing! someday i may share more about the conference…

since the conference i have been asked to coach a high school sailing team! OMG!  How exciting is that! Someone outside of work has noticed me and my abilities and asked for me to consider it….it feels good! I want to coach as well! I will keep you posted!!

This was the first time i had left my boys for that long and i think it was hard on all of us. It was nice to get away and who knew a king size bed was that big? It is HUGE! I did not have to share with anyone!

I am back! now it is back to blogging! I have been tagged so i will have to catch up on a few of those! You have not heard the last of me!

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Free association

January 7, 2008

Okay here is a little meme i found and thought i would try….You can find it on Unconscious Mutterings

What is free association?

Free association is described as a “psychoanalytic procedure in which a person is encouraged to give free rein to his or her thoughts and feelings, verbalizing whatever comes into the mind without monitoring its content.” Over time, this technique is supposed to help bring forth repressed thoughts and feelings that the person can then work through to gain a better sense of self.

How do I play?

I’ll post ten words to which you can respond to with the first thing that comes to mind. Some words will call forth ‘normal’ responses as in shoe may lead to tennis, but who knows, maybe it will call forth something a little out of the ordinary.

Consider yourself tagged!

  1. Mist :: over the ocean in the morning
  2. Eating :: food
  3. Beacon :: light, lighthouse
  4. Speaker :: music, loud
  5. Episodes :: having a moment of mental break down
  6. Conference :: Florida
  7. Sneak attack :: kids
  8. Medic :: KB he is crazy
  9. Web :: addiction
  10. 2008 :: New roller coaster ride hang on tight!